For 12 years now I have experienced these triple numbers
I don't remember them all, but some
01/01/01
the year I was going to turn 13
and will experience my first kiss
much much later that year
02/02/02
the year I will experience fail
and puberty on its full storm
the year I'll feel like someone
and started to numb myself
afraid of pain
03/03/03
I work hard to succeed
and hope to enter new worlds
but nothing is ever as expected
strong friends, first love
04/04/04
Rock'n'Roll
Here I am almost 16
thinking the world is MINE
and then the heart breaks
into fragile scatters of a shadow what once was
Never say no to a hand which reaches for you
4 is my number
05/05/05
Everything changes that night
Real love changes everything
I felt so strong with you on my side
06/06/06
Out of age
but not much older
such a lucky fool I am
writing poetry
breaking hearts every 3 minutes
getting mine broken into particles of dust
is this the real life?
The man told me I have a big heart
and I cry and cry and cry
what is the value of a big heart?
07/07/07
Failure
Failure
Berlin and Birthday
Failure
Failure
This year was not meant to be
but I am a soap star!
you have to love me!
08/08/08
Berlin
London
100 lovers
perfect eye sight
perfect poetry
love at first sight
storm of the storms
life is almost good
09/09/09
I made it!
almost a world journey
my old and dearest friend
I am free and chained to this elf
I am giving birth to my first own baby
10/10/10
Love so strong
I found home
I leave home
new country
new people
new life
this is unreal
who am I?
11/11/11
I've lost myself
find new pieces and make them one
emptiness
panic
solitude
what I need and what I want
why don't you love me?
The Journey.
Why don't I love myself?
here it is
life, love, wounds, scars, healers
I dive.
Literally, figuratively, passionately.
12/12/12
I start counting
and find 3.5 worst days
perfect ratio
I grow wings
I let you go
I try to be brave
happiness is the only thing which matters
noone and nothing can harm me
go back to colours
a fragile start
curiousity please never end
0000000000
I am 24 now
I don't drink (only on occasion)
Don't do drugs
I don't steal
I try to be as honest as I can
I work
sometimes I am lazy
I sing and dance because it makes me happy
I apologize when I am to blame
I care
and still you tell me because I don't believe in your Father God I am not going to heaven?
I don't believe in heaven nor in hell
but I believe most of you who point at others are hypocrites
27 days to go but I still believe this year was better than the one before
and before
Thanks to the people who show they care
the random ones, the spontaneous lovers and strangers
the great music
the good jokes
the seldom tears.
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